无论正在经历什么，都请你不要轻言放弃，因为从来没有一种坚持会被辜负，时刻满怀一颗希望的心对待生活。
曾经的闺蜜跟我说，其实你只是表面看上去的纯良，内心底子是很虚伪的。六年前听到，我愤而跟她断绝掉朋友的关系，就此与她老死不相往来。我对她很好，也许是我自己认为的那种好，至少作为朋友的那段日子里，我很对得起她。不过，如今六年之后，再回顾这句话的时候，我欣然接受。
今天，我想说说我与MR.X，五年前，我遭遇到了我人生最大的危机，有我的疏忽，也有我的性格使然，当时已经看老板很不爽了，所以都不想跟他有什么正面的交谈才导致MR.X有了可乘之机。
我想说的是我的故事，也是我所遇见的神迹。
那时候，出来做外贸第三年，阿里巴巴还没现在这么壮大，我从没操作过阿里巴巴，听说过钓鱼软件，却没真正去了解过其中的大概。所以，有次客户询盘来，回复大概的内容之后，客户就发来链接说，单子在网站里，你可以输入邮箱密码看，好吧，接单心切的我就输入邮件去查探究竟了；而后续的事情我已经记不得，只是随后几个月开单收定金以及收余款都没出过什么问题；直至我的黑人客户准备打我13万美金余款的时候，邮箱已被监控这件事情才显露出来。余款迟迟未到，我也是掉以轻心，打定金的那笔钱也来得很慢，客户说加纳银行都是这样的，到账号上需要十个工作日左右。而且跟客户每天都有电话沟通，所以非常放心，然，左等右等，等到快过了两个星期，钱还是没到账户上，我跟客户在着急之下，一对银行账户跟账户名才发现，客户的余款早就进入台湾华南银行的某个账户了。
当务之急当然是立马电话给华南银行，问是否可以冻结下账号，因为那笔钱是我们的，这个开户人是个骗子。电话那头的小姐，操着浓重的台湾腔回复道：不好意思，你没有这种权利，我们也没有这种权利，要冻结账户也得是户主授权，或者是经由政府一类的；我心想，你倒是说的轻松，你的政府跟我的政府，是完全两种不同的意识形态啊……接着我抱着一线希望打电话给永康的公安，得到的答案是，你们又不是受害人，无法立案；这个答案实在牵强，我们怎么就不是受害人了呢？钱是打给我们的，如果余款未收到，我们跟工厂也是要蒙蔽巨大损失的，怎么就不是受害人？还没等我说完，对方就说，这种事情也遇见过很多，但是真是超出我们侦查范围的，你还是找找别的途径吧。
找找别的途径？这笔钱13万美金，对于国际警察而言，这点儿能入得来他们的法眼吗？可是对于我而言，算是天文数字了；这件事情的发生是在圣诞节之前的一个星期，那个星期是我人生最为黑暗的一段日子，那种心理的煎熬就如同那个星期的天气一般，经历夜不能寐的夜晚之后所能遇见的白天又是大段大段的阴霾。
我得感激我的善良，因为遇见这件事情第一时间所想到的不是逃，而是怎么尽自己的努力帮客户追回那笔钱，客户是黑人，我没有种族歧视，但是也想抱怨下黑人的智商大多数都不如我们；客户跟我说，那笔钱是他们目前的全部家当，没了这笔钱就得面临破产，我听了，十分内疚，这个事情其实完全可以避免，因为老板在查看我的邮件的时候就提出来，我的邮件附件里面余款PI的账号是台湾的，我马上点进去看发送邮箱的时候，那封已发送邮件的附件跟我桌面保存的是一模一样的，我跟老板说，没有啊，我这里显示就是我们的啊。然后，老板就没再追究什么了。其实我邮箱里显示的已发送的那封邮件早就被MR.X截掉，真正送达客户那里是MR.X的那一封，这个仰仗的什么技术，我就不想深究了。
接着我能找到的途径是什么呢？我让客户，其实是客户的儿子，去找下加纳的警察，让他们立案。然而，警察跟他说，这个事情最好找下中国的大使馆，让他们介入下，因为这个是国际刑事案件。客户很笨，因为他不知道该怎么联系到驻加纳的大使馆，于是就由我代劳打了个国际长途给大使馆，那里的电话信号真的很差，我根本就听不清楚他叽里呱啦地说的什么，只是在他挂断电话，嘟的一声之前，我听到那句无能为力。
所以，我能百度出来的所有办法都行不通，那个星期三，似乎整个天空的阴霾都装进了我的心里，抑郁到我食不甘味，我疑惑，我每天都在问上帝，为何命运对我能不公平到这种程度？我自认没做过任何伤天害理的事情，却得让我跟我的客户蒙受这种灾难？老板后来跟我说，如果没有办法的话，那么就把柜子提回来，要么转卖。意思就是要把这个损失全部转嫁给客户。善良如我，我怎么可能接受。彼时，还尚未发现，客户还一直在给我邮件，其实跟我一直邮件联系的客户是MR.X，他注册了一个几乎与加纳客户一模一样的邮件，相差的就是最后一个字母，客户是a，他是r，就这点儿区别一直到那个星期三，我才发现，于是，在完全绝望的状态之下，尝试着写了封邮件给他，那封邮件我没保存，就记得最后一句话有提到God。
由此，MR.X给我发来封邮件说：钱会还给你客户的，你放心，因为你touch my heart.
恩，救命稻草由此从天而降，我接着写了什么呢？从他的信息来看，他也信上帝，怎么办？
用我读到过的《圣经》啊，于是我就马上去查阅圣经里有关骗钱之类的文字，然后复制粘贴，再由此展开写大段的英文如下：
Dear Mr. X:
Nice day!
It is sunny day in my country now, I don't know who you are, so I call you who you are.
As the 《Matthew》said: Do unto others as you would have others do unto you.
I had called the TAIWAN HUANAN BANK, they did not answer me any feedback on returning back the money. Yes, I am really like one fool and nerd, I trust everyone as GOD told us to be friendly to anyone.
If you also believe in GOD, I suppose you are one of our brothers or sisters, how can one sister fool his sister? I am now begging you, because I am nearly dying, I had not eaten any food for days, no sleep, I know this is the way to die?
But what can I do, I can do nothing but harm myself, the containers now are on the port, if we can not get the money, my boss will not release the B/L, my customer will lose more, then broken up, he is from Ghana, one black brother. He is trust me well, which make me feel guilty. I should be sentenced to the hell after I died.
Now, I really beg you to help me. See the GOD, I am really very weak now, hunger and exhausted.
Hope GOD can bless you, we will pray for you always. AMEN.
Regards
Evas
我承认这封邮件里面是有很多语法错误的，我也有夸张，把自己塑造成一个楚楚可怜几尽崩溃的prayer，当然更重要的是我得让他感受到我的善良。我是不是很有心计？我不想承认也得承认，在这件事情整个Process里，我动用了我毕生所学，包括心理学，以及三十六计，可是出发点是没错，是否可以用睿智来形容呢？我实在讨厌用心机来形容我。
接着我收到了MR.X的这封邮件：
Relax yourself the money is coming back, bank has already sent it back to your customer, don't kill yourself and you will not die. Contact with HUA NAN TAIWAN bank they will tell you the money is coming back.
当看到这封信的时候，谁都不信，他们说，这是他在拖延时间，估计台湾银行那边发现什么了，需要耗点儿时间才能让他拿到钱。所以我在无法确信的情况之下，跟MR.X提出需要跟他保持联系到我拿到钱。
Dear MR X:
Thank you very much for your kind reply.
However, what faith can I trust your words? My boss and other everyone suppose you are moving on cheating me.
The bank still did not give me the reply like you said.
I am nearly breaking up now, I don't know what life are you living?
Now I want to tell you, my boss will not afford any responsibly for this issue, my boss's final determination will be take back the goods or sell them to other one, so my customer will lose his goods, his deposit, he had paid everything in the PORT, can you see his end? I don't want image it.
Now, if the GOD want to punish some one, I really want to afford all the punishment, but you can see, at last, it is my customer who will be the only one to bear all the punishment. I have not expected for that, GOD can arrange one big accident on me, let lose my leg even my life, I am willing to bear any punishment for my guilty.
As the <Bible> taught us, Christians are the sinner who get the grace from god.
I am willing to bear any punishment for my guilty. Pls, finally beg you, do not hurt my customer, you can take my soul and everything I can give you, but do not hurt my customer. Now my boss is asking me to take off the responsibility for the issue to only let the customer afford the lose. You know the pain is killing me. Now my boss is asking me to take off the responsibility for this issue to only let the customer afford the lose. You know the pain is killing me.
Regards and GOD bless you
Evas
我继续求他，继续刻意地营造着我所经营的希冀于能打动他的弱者的形象。我也深知，在这个弱肉强食的世界里，在某团体之内，弱者往往能得到更多的帮助，这是我作为一直以来的强者的总结，我很强，能力很强，可是在越多业务员，有经理的情况下，能给我的资源是最少的，为什么？我能力强大到在没有阿里以及展会的情况下，靠谷歌搜索，我就让一个客户发来一年25个柜子的独家代理的合同，这是后话，以后再说我怎么做到的。
这件事情发生之后，我连着一个月遇见人就说，我遇到了神迹，当然，我得到的答案大多数是说我运气好，遇见的是个有信仰的骗子。然而，没有一个人会去深究我的邮件内容，我自认我对中文的文字驾驭能力很强，其实我对我英文的驾驭能力也不弱：
Dear Mr. X:
Your kind reply is very appreciated, anyway, you are telling me to way of hope. No word can say my such complicated mood.
To be honesty, I am still doubt your words, because none of people I knew can believe this issue, they think it will be the wonder, and I had not expected that I have that good luck to experience the wonder to happen on myself.
Anyway, I heard news from someone who is also share the same experience like me.
The Cheater had said the same words like you, and promised that he will give money back, even they made communicated by the phone.
However, she did not get money back at last. So she break my hope now, which leads me to be mad now.
My thoughts now are very very mass up, as you give me the hope, but all the one I knew did not trust that hope.
What should I do then?
Waiting, just waiting till next Thursday? 6 days? I need to stay in the darkness for 6 days?
"John 1-4, 5" saying: What has come into being in him was life, and the life was the light of all people.
The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not overcome it.
So pls play the role like the god, to lead my life to overcome the darkness, pls do it, beg and beg, I am now Kneel down to beg you.
Regards and god bless you
Evas
我曾经在很多公开场合，谈论外贸的场合上强调过，英语很重要，因为你无法预料到英语沟通能力强所能给你带来的好处。很多英语底子差的人都要反驳，说，我英语也不好啊，可是我就做的很好啊；恩，那是你的运气，我运气很差，所以才会遇见MR.X，遭遇到这场危机。
上封邮件之后，他给我这么回复：
Evas, I have said times without number you don't have to hurt yourself, because of you alone I have made up my mind not to take the money again,so take my word and I will continue to write you until you have confirmed my word as promised.
都说老外很讲究契约精神，然而我所面对的可能是一个新入行的骗子，或者是一个已经行骗得手经验很丰富的钓鱼高手，我所能抓住的重点是什么呢？跟个骗子讲契约精神，真是异想天开地太过认真，然而，我总是心存希望，接下来要做的就是希望取得他的信任吧，让他相信他所骗取的我是一个善良的存在，我所能运用的谋略也只能是基于我所有的猜测，他既然会回复我，那么他肯定也起了恻隐之心，我接下里要做的事情就显得明朗了很多，我必须得抓住他所承诺的promise，所以我需要更加深入了解他的阅历吧，于是我就参照我看过的那部印度电影《贫民窟的百万富翁》的感想以及映射而写了这封邮件：
Dear Mr. X:
Nice day!
Our whole city now is in the mist, which makes me feel worse. I don't know where you are from?
Africa or America? Or wherever else. However, no mater where you are, I know you are good man as you promise me the hope.
I had seen one India film named <Slumdog Millionaire>, it really touches my heart. It is written, this is the saying from the end of the movie. It is one story about one poor boy hardworking for change his destination.
Both you and me are the one who are looking for the way to change our life like him.
I don't know why I trust you, I only knew that you were my The final lifeline.
Thank you and expecting your further reply
Regards
Evas
没错，生而为人，如果出生于贫穷的人，大多数的他们疲于此生，热于奔赴的人生目标就该是通过改变自己的命运来改变下一代的命运。世间有黑与白，所以才会有人的好与坏，基于小时候反复背诵的马列哲学，凡事没有个绝对而言，当时的我全部所能做的最后赌注就在于我该怎么维护住我刚刚跟MR.X所建立的这场关系，显然，MR.X对我已经解除了人与人之间该有的第一道防备，他跟我说：
Evas, how are you doing today? I am very happy you prayed for me which has also made me to look more ahead in getting you out of problems.
Same God you worship will show you the direction this week, well my mother and my father are both from Pakistan but was born and trained in state of Illino, United States of America, I practice both religion while Christianity tells more about human existence, I read the bible and Koran, has also traveled wildly.
I have leaved in many cities of China for 4 years where I have also met with good business men and women.
I love many cultures of China food and their people, Evas I travel to many countries for more exposure will be in Brazil for carnival festival coming up soon. Pls keep in touch with your customer this week the money will come back to their bank ok.
想起《疯狂动物城》这部电影，大概的故事就不用我多说了。看过一段影评，说内里的实质性的主角是那头性格斑羚羊，实质性想讲的哲理就是世界到最后还是得靠文化来拯救。文化是个什么定义呢？百度上说，就词释意来说，文就是“记录，表达和评述”，化就是“分析、理解和包容”。所以，我所精心通过自己思维所写的英文，实质的内里也是为了化掉我当前的危机——分析，理解以及包容MR.X：
Dear Mr. X:
Thank you for your reply.
It is very pleased that you can introduce yourself. For myself, as you know, our family is not rich, my father is a driver, and my mother have no job. However, they are always hardworking and save money to let my sister and I have the well education.
I like reading when I was young, my dream is to become one writer, but as you know, writer can not make money at the very beginning. I need to make money to help my family first. So I learned English and the international trading, and got one job as the international sales from 2010th.
I like to communicate with anyone, it is my nature, whoever you are, I like to learn their traveling in their lives, and I did not travel many places, so it is the only to learn the strange world. By the way, I really envy you for your traveled so many countries. I like reading, it also help me to learn the different culture.
As you told me you would stay in Brazil for the coming New Year, in my expression, Brazil is not one safe country.
Because I had seen one Brazil movie called <The city of God>, it shows me the people there can take the gun, and kill anybody they want to kill, and the policemen are bribed by the crime. So you should take care of yourself though this country is well-known for the football either.
Regards, and I will always pray for you
Evas
人与人之间的信任是基于彼此的了解之后所建立的尊重，所以我从来就没在邮件里强调过MR.X是cheater，而是我的brother，因为他是一个复杂的存在，他出生在巴基斯坦，跟随父母来到美国，熟读圣经与古兰经，他的信仰决定他不该是个cheater,可是他又是如何走上这条道路的，我很好奇，可是我知道我不能问。所以，我能说什么呢？也许就是投其所好吧，而我这个投其所好也只能基于自己的猜测，话说我不是不能洞穿人心，其实我从很小的时候就能看懂这世界的人情世故都脱不开一个利字，我才经常强调我没有青春，青春本该是张白纸，而这个世界却在我最初的时候给我看尽了它残忍的一面，这也是造就我一直以来的愤世嫉俗的根源，MR.X对于我而言，他一直是个好人，他回：
Evas, how are you today? Have you receive good news from your customer? Keep me posted as the money returns.
Evas, have you confirmed my promise? Let me know if you have reached the bank again and what was the responds back to you.
看到这封邮件是那个星期过后的下个星期，天空放晴，内心的阴霾就此放空，我觉得这很有可能是上帝跟我开的一个大玩笑，是用来警惕或者是告诫我，我这辈子必须得是个善良的存在。再打电话给华南银行的时候，还是那个台湾女孩的声音，她说，款项会还到加纳账号去，忘了说，我还跟加纳银行的人联系过，让她发过电邮给华南银行冻结账号之类的，可是巴别塔的存在，总是让我get不到银行肯定的回复，她总是说，我还在等美国那边的回复，我有信息了，自然会跟你客户说的。所以，在得知款项将被退还给加纳的时候，我又电话给加纳的银行，那边最后也给了肯定的回复。于是，我写了最后一封邮件给MR.X：
Dear Mr. X:
Thank you for your kind mail.
The money is back to the costumer now. But I am facing another difficulty.
The customer suppose that I am fooling her and asking for the assurement. Even asking me to go to Ghana to go with her to open the container to check the quality first.
Then she would give me the balance. I am now handling with it, I understand her, however, she can not understand me.
I think it will be finally solved. Now I don't know how to say the appreciation to you as you help me out.
No words can say it, I think, anyway, thank you very much.
Regards and god bless you
Evas
他在给了我最后一封邮件之后，从此石牛入海：
Evas, you only need to relax your mind now, most importantly you have conquered the fear of unknown, you can now tell your friends those who never believe the money will come back, to see you as gift in life, I sent the money back only because of you, you will not go to Ghana take my word! Same GOD will set you free again, right now be closer to GOD than never before. Have a good and wonderful weekend.
肖申克说的对，希望，的确是个好东西：
Hope is a good thing. Maybe the best of things. And no good thing ever dies.
